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I'm Missing Love.

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I’ve fallen out of love.
Or so I think.
And I have to say,
I didn’t think it’d hurt this bad.
Maybe hurt is the wrong word to use.
Replace it with empty.
Yeah, that’s the perfect word to describe this horrible feeling
that lingers throughout my body.
When my emotions lean towards the worst,
That’s when this feeling hits me hardest.
Looking to run to love.
Speak my words of fear and sadness to the one whose always there.
Knowing it’ll make everything better just because their beside you.
When you feel you have no one at the end of the day,
Go to love.
Your love is the one who’s by your side to hold you.
Well, it seems that‘s something I can no longer do.
Who knew it could feel so empty?
They say it’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all,
And maybe I agree.
But maybe I don’t.
Who likes having something taken away?
Something is missing that I once felt so strong.
Let me feel again.
Wait…
Maybe that’s not the right way to go.
No, it’s not right at all.
Now is not the time to start over again.
I need time.
Time to understand why things like these will happen.
Prepare myself for the next time I can feel.
Allow myself to realize that there will be many more times to loose a love.
Understand that I will get past the hurt of those too one day.
But my mind fights with itself over every thought it has.
I tell myself  the reason for not wanting to feel again is to prepare myself.
But I fight with myself and say it’s because I haven’t fallen out of love with the last.
Not true.
I am out of love.
I just don’t like this empty feeling of a big something that was once a part of me.
Tug of war.
My mind plays it every day.
Hide and seek,
I’ll hide myself until someone can find me and tell me which feeling is the right one.
Maybe I don’t need anyone to come and find me.
I just need to find myself.
I’m the only one who can figure myself out.
Though it seems as if that’s the hardest thing to do right now,
Some day I will understand.
Be patient with myself.
Be patient with life.
Things will fall together.
They have to.
We live for that moment.
Life isn’t about living just to die.
It’s about going through challenge over challenge.
Falling tear through falling tear.
Having something one day and loosing it the next.
Fighting for the moment,
When everything you’ve struggled through has brought you to the time,
Where everything has fallen into place.
Where the things that hurt you most, no longer hurt so bad.
When the worries of never being happy again,
And never being okay,
No longer cross your mind.
Everything is right.
Everything is finally okay.
Your at peace and so is your mind.
You have found the reason you’ve been living for.
The life you were supposed to have.
The things that needed to happen to make you this happy today.
So I’ll continue to live for that moment.
I’ll feel again one day, I know I will.
Give it time my dear.
Give it just a little more time.
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asukaevaunit02's avatar
that is amazing, so deep and emotional, and sounds very similar to things i have thought and felt recently, wonderful work