Let's Try To Live On My Own

Changing my ways
The others got me nowhere.
I’ve learned from the past.
I’ll never do again.
Moving forward,
I guess that involves leaving you behind.
Or at least pretending that’s what I plan to do.
But little do you know its just a part of my new attempt to get you back.
But wait, that’s not what I want?
Maybe I don’t even know myself.
I’ve spent so much time caught up in you,
Figuring you out,
Admiring you.
I’ve forgotten about myself.
What is it that I like?
Who am I trying to become?
You?
No. I don’t want to become you.
But it looks as if I’ve started heading in that direction.
It’s time for change.
Time for me to find myself.
Better yet….create myself.
That’s what you say life is about, right?
Done worrying about finding my heart.
This is where I make a new one.
Leave the other behind with you.
I’ll pretend it doesn’t mean a thing.
My intentions are good, I swear.
I’ve just lost my piece of mind.
But here is where I regain that piece.
Putting myself before you this time.
I’d really like to meet myself.
Introduce myself to a better part of me.
A stronger part that lives without you.
Mind set is completely different now.
Find your own ways.
It’s time to find mine.
Crouched over,
Hands wrapped around my knees.
Head buried.
I’m through with hiding.
I have a life to live.
Bringing myself to life for the first time.
Let’s see what this world has to offer.
I’ll never be your victim again.
It’s time to breathe my own breath.
I need to stop breathing yours.